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The Grace and Faith of a Child

Wow, Violet's 16th EUA. 

That is a lot of under anesthesia procedures for such a little peanut who has just turned 3 years old. And, EUAs are only 1 of the things she has had to go under anesthesia for.

Violet's wish trip to Disneyland was the most amazing and joyous experience. But now, after just a few days back, we have had to snap right into the reality of the hospital again. Still, we are so grateful for the wonderful break we had. It was such a blessed time that we will never forget. ♥

Violet always amazes me with her strength and her resilience. It can't be easy for a child to go from being on cloud 9 at the Happiest Place on Earth and then quickly back into the hospital. It just shouldn't be, but this is her path, and she walks it so gracefully. As her parents, we pray each day that we can also walk it with such grace. It's not easy to do.




Violet did tell us that she didn't want to do this today while we were in pre-op. Usually, the concern doesn't show from her until the moment she needs to lay down on the table and have the mask put on her little face. Josh and I reassured her that she was going to do very well and that she is so brave. She kept a smile on her face as we all waited with just glimpses here and there of her uneasiness. 






When it came time to go back, Violet did really well until the table. She did not want to lay down. Violet wouldn't do it willingly for the first time so I, along with the nurse and anesthesiologist, needed to use a bit of gentle force. I never had to do this before and it was heart wrenching. She almost started to cry, but I started to sing to her and to remind her that God was watching over her and keeping her safe. She fell asleep, I thanked the staff and made my way back to Josh with tears in my eyes.

It is never easy for Josh and I when Violet is under. The wait to hear if today is the day our world will be turned upside down again by cancer or if everything is still stable is very difficult. When people tell us how strong we are, we thank them because that is a very kind and encouraging thing to hear. But, the truth is, it's not me or Josh who is strong. It is God. We pray our way through the ups and downs of Violet's diagnosis each and every day. Without Him to lean on and without His promises, I don't know how we would get through it.

After the procedure was finished, our hospital pager went off and we quickly walked to the counter. We were given the information of which room to wait in for Violet's ophthalmologist. Our hearts race the most in this room in the moments before we get the news. Most times, we feel sick to our stomachs.

Dr. Wiess comes in with a smile and a thumbs up! Answered prayers come in the words, "She looks great. Everything looks stable and there was nothing new of concern."

Thank you's, happy tears and joy! ♥


Violet's recovery from anesthesia was slow as she wanted to keep sleeping. I didn't mind it at all as I held her in my lap. She could have slept for hours and I would have been completely content. Our sweet girl. We encouraged her to drink her juice so we could get the IV taken out of her hand and take her home. She can never get that IV taken out fast enough ... She does not like it one bit.



Violet is our miracle. Thank you all for praying for her. The support, love and encouragement we continue to receive means so much to us.





God bless. ♥

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  1. I am so glad to hear things are going well! She's growing up so fast!

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